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Back in Goleta

I returned to Goleta last night after two nights in Avila Beach and can say that I’m happy to be away from that mean town. The weather is hotter here. I’m staying at the same hotel where I stayed on the first night.

It’s an awkward hotel room, especially the shower. The showerhead is one of those detachable ones that hangs in the middle of the stall. And it faces the wall. I can’t just stand there and let the hot water hit me. I have to hold the showerhead in one hand and wash myself with the other hand. It’s just as dysfunctional as the shower when I stayed on the first night, which was missing a door, but it’s something that I’ll remember in years to come.

But anyway, I kept eating yesterday. My parents and I ate lunch at a restaurant inside a hotel in Los Olivos, which is a small town off the 101 mostly for wine tasting, but they still have places to eat. All three of us ate flatbreads. Our waiter was a big man with mutton chops. He suggested the specials. Waiters always speak fast when they tell us what the specials are. I can never catch on to what they’re saying. But I did hear the word “artichoke.” My father did, too, so we ordered the artichoke as an appetizer. It was a plate full of small artichoke hearts with some sort of white cheese sprinkled on top of it, with a yellow sauce that I can only describe as tangy–if that’s the right word, but it’s hard to tell.

We then ordered our flatbreads. My mother ordered the Margherita flatbread, which needs no explanation. We all know what a Margherita pizza is: salt, olive oil, mozzarella, tomato sauce. My father ordered the mushroom truffle flatbread. And I ordered something with garlic, mushrooms, pine nuts, tomato sauce, and ricotta cheese. There was no hint of garlic, even though it said garlic on the menu. It didn’t taste as good as their flatbreads, but they still gave me what they couldn’t finish, so I ate it later in the hotel room in Goleta. The flatbreads tasted better cold than they did hot. I wasn’t expecting that.

After lunch, we drove to Chumash and gambled at the Chumash Casino. It’s a fair casino, unlike the casinos in Coachella Valley, where the machines hardly ever hit. At this one, I broke even after playing a machine with the devil involved in it. When the devil shows up in the middle slot, a bunch of free games shows up, and the devil unlocks more money, including bonuses such as the mini bonus, the minor bonus, the major bonus, and the maxi bonus. The major bonus would’ve won me a hundred dollars, while the maxi bonus would’ve won me over a thousand dollars. But that never showed up. I went there with a hundred dollars to gamble with and left with the same amount. It was as if I never even played the slots.

And then I said goodbye to my parents. They’re staying for the rest of the week in Avila (God help them), and I’m driving back to the heat in Palm Springs this afternoon. It was a trip that was frustrating at times, but I got through it.

At Avila Beach II

Day three is the last day. The circus is leaving town. The one-man circus.

I’ve had enough of this beach. The people are unfriendly. Yesterday, a barista at a coffee shop in San Luis Obispo castigated me for taking up too much space at a table. I apologized and said I would clean it up, but the lady kept giving me the stink eye, so I moved outside where the b***h couldn’t see me. That was in the morning.

In the afternoon, I rented the tennis ball machine at the tennis club where my parents were staying. We were actually staying at the inn, not the hotel, next to the tennis club. I waited until one o’clock to use it.

A short guy who managed the ball machine came up to me and said, “The machine is for club members only, not hotel guests, but I’ll let it slide this time.”

Oh, gee, thanks. What a swell person you are.

At least he helped me set up the machine. It fed the balls well, but I was too afraid to hit them onto the other court, where someone else was playing. So I wasn’t swinging perfectly and, therefore, wasn’t hitting them with accuracy. A few balls flew out, while most of them skipped into the net. I used to play high school and collegiate tennis, but I’ve since lost my strokes. They’re hard to get back after I haven’t played in a while. It was annoying to deal with. Not only that, but the machine that picked up the balls was broken, so I had to pick them up myself, which consumed a lot of time and energy. I used my watch to count the calories I was burning, and picking up the balls counted for a lot of that.

The lady in the court next to me was using another ball machine, but her ball picker-upper was working just fine. She kindly said, “You can use it when I’m done.”

A nice gesture of hers, but she didn’t finish until I finished. I’d rented the court for an hour, and she’d been hitting with the ball machine longer than I had, maybe two hours. It was too late.

So I chalked that up as a negative experience. I never want to do it again.

My parents took me to dinner at a restaurant that overlooked Pismo Beach. It was one of their favorite places. The menu didn’t grab me. I wanted something like a crab sandwich, but nothing like it was on the menu. It was all entrees. There we were, gazing out at the surfers surfing the little waves that Pismo had to offer, and none of us ordered seafood. My father ordered the lettuce chicken wraps, and my mother ordered the filet mignon. I ordered the half chicken with gnocchi, green beans, and mushrooms. We might as well have eaten at the Cheesecake Factory, but I didn’t complain.

I don’t even really like chicken. I’m still wondering why I ordered it. I wanted cookies to make up for dinner. All I’ve been doing this vacation is eating in between dealing with a******s with ball machines and baristas with dirty looks.

I think today will be a better day. We’ll eat lunch somewhere and go to a casino on the Chumash reservation, where my father once won eleven thousand dollars. I’ll stay another night in Goleta and sit in my favorite coffee shop tomorrow morning before I head back to Palm Springs. I hope the same lady won’t be working there who gave me a cheese Danish that she’d never warmed up.

At Avila Beach

Here I am, in the middle of nowhere, with nothing to think about. It’s only a few days here. No big deal. I’ll survive.

I’m at a coffee shop, drinking an iced espresso because they don’t serve a cold brew in this small town. I’m in San Luis Obispo because the little town where my parents talked me into staying doesn’t have a coffee shop for miles, and it pisses me off why they would want to stay here. It doesn’t make sense why they would want to stay somewhere far away from civilization like this in California. But, like I said, it’s for a few days. I can live.

But anyway, I’m wearing my gray woolen coat because it’s cold out here in June. It’s sixty degrees, and my feet are freezing inside my deck shoes. But I’m not complaining, just a little bit.

I had a dream last night when my old friend, whom I don’t talk to anymore, gave a speech in a full auditorium about himself. And I sat in the back row. Don’t ask why I was there. I can’t control my dreams. But he was there to promote his book of poetry. I didn’t even know he wrote poetry. But it was a slap in the face to me. All I know is he talks on podcasts, performs music, and produces movies. Now, he wrote a book of poems, something I’d dreamt about doing.

I never went up to him and congratulated him because he doesn’t talk to me anymore, and it would’ve been super awkward to begin the conversation. And that was how the dream ended. He finished his speech about himself, and I woke up in the hotel room I was staying in.

It’s not really a hotel—it’s an inn. I could tell by the state of its closet, in which the walls are torn, but I’m not one to judge that the old inn needs renovation.

I left my keycards inside this morning. What do I tell the inn staff? I’ve done it before. I imagine I just tell them what happened, and they open the room for me. They’ll probably have to check my driver’s license.

So what am I going to do today? My mother said that I could maybe hit the tennis ball machine at the tennis courts they have in this little village, but there are no guarantees. Other than that, what else is there to do but write? I can’t find anything else here with my time. I’m turning forty-seven on Sunday. What does a forty-six-year-old do? I’ll just sit in here until they kick me out, which won’t happen.

I’m in a coffee shop in a shopping center. It has Wifi, which is all I need to save my material to a cloud in case I lose my computer. That’s what the cloud is for. I have my whole manuscript in there, so everything is where it’s supposed to be.

I ate so much yesterday. I began the day with an iced Americano, a cheese Danish that they never warmed up, and a peanut butter milkshake for lunch. I waited until dinner to have a cup of clam chowder and an order of fish and chips on the boardwalk. The clam chowder was creamy with lots of clams but mostly potatoes. My parents ordered a basket of sourdough bread, so I would dip the bread in the chowder as if it came in a bread bowl. And then I ate a small order of fish and chips. Small, as in, they gave me only two strips of fish with an entire basket of fries. The fries were battered, just like the fish, and I could barely stomach them. They gave me so many of them because it’s cheaper to serve fries than it is to serve fish. It would’ve been a whole hell of a lot nicer to serve a bunch of fish and only a few fries, but, like I said, they were cheap. That’s why when I go to an Indian restaurant and order chicken tikka masala, they give me two pieces of chicken and a pound of rice, or the same thing happens when I order orange chicken at a Chinese restaurant. Restaurants have to be cheap.

Anyway, I complain a lot. It’s why I write. Get used to it.

Travel

Next week is my birthday. My parents are meeting me in Avila Beach for a celebration. The drive to Avila from Palm Springs is over four hours, so I’m staying in Goleta for a night, where my favorite coffee shop is.

But anyway, I’ll have to gas up the tank entirely. It costs me fifty bucks, roughly, when I’m on empty. I figure I’ll run out of gas by the time I get to Avila Beach. So I’ll have to gas up again to drive back to Palm Springs. You do the math. That’s a hundred dollars to gas up to go there and back, which can cost as much as a plane ticket to some parts of the country.

I look at gas as something that should be free. That’s my mind for you. I guess some people value gas differently, but I would rather spend my hard-earned money on another commodity. Whatever the case, it’s gonna be a travel from here to there. I just hope there will be no traffic along the way. There have been wildfires near Gorman on the 5 freeway, which has altered the course for some people. That could be the direction that I’m going. If that’s so, I’ll just stop on the road more often.

I can take my time getting there, as I have all day to get to Goleta on Sunday. I’ll stay the night, hit the coffee shop in the morning, and work on my manuscript before I drive to see my parents in Avila on Monday. That sounds fair. I’m taking the whole week off from work. Thank God. To work is to suffer, and I love traveling anyway, especially to those parts where it’s cool by the ocean. I’ll eat my favorite pizza and my favorite Danish. It’s something to look forward to.

Another One of Those Days

Here I sit in the coffee shop, another feckless bore, typing on an iPad. That’s right. Ha ha. I’m typing with a keyboard for an iPad instead of touching the screen a bunch of times like most people with iPads do. That’s because I bought a keyboard from Best Buy. They makes those now. I find it easier to write with an iPad for some reason, similar to when I’m texting someone on an iPhone. The words come out more fluidly. I don’t feel the need to censor myself or get uptight about things. It’s just like I’m texting my neighbor. Meet me at the pond by eight. There, that’s it.

I dream big dreams as I’m typing, but I won’t tell anyone what those dreams are. It’s my dirty little secret, you see? If I tell everyone, the dream might not come true. And then what? More medication for me to take? 400 milligrams of Gabapentin, 300 milligrams of Trileptal, 1 milligram of Klonopin, 15 milligrams of Abilify, however many milligrams of Adderall. I may have forgotten some. In a perfect world, I’m taking none of that crap. But I need it to keep me going. I take amino acids to reduce the withdrawal symptoms because I’m getting off one of those drugs. My doctor says she’ll prescribe me something that will lift my interest in activities again. As of now, there aren’t many that bring me joy. I work my dead end job, take a walk, and go to sleep. Those are how my days transpire.

Now and then, I’ll have a day off. Like next week, I’ll see the dentist on Monday. Wednesday is Juneteenth, so my boss told me to go ahead and take Tuesday off as well. There’s no use in working on Tuesday and taking Wednesday off again. So I’ll work only two days—Thursday and Friday. And then I’ll take the whole week off after that.

It’s for my birthday when I’ll turn the ripe old age of forty-seven. I’ll drive to Goleta where my favorite coffee shop is and stay for the night, and then I’ll drive to see my parents in Avila Beach the day after. I’ve been to Avila only once or twice in my life. My parents swear by it because of how gorgeous the weather is. They just want to escape from the triple-digit heat here in the desert. I don’t blame them, but something tells me Avila Beach will be overrated. I’ll stay there for a few nights. The drive there is over four hours. That’s why I’ll stay in Goleta for two nights: on the way there and on the way back. That way, I can break the trip up into an hour-and-a-half drive and a three hour drive.

And then the Fourth of July is the week after. So you can say I have it pretty easy for the next few weeks. But it’s back to a full week on the week afterward. Oh, well. Nothing lasts forever. What else do I have to look forward to? Nothing, really.

I’m sitting in the coffee shop, and nothing interesting is happening. I see the same old men sitting at the long table in the middle: the guy who looks like an Italian hitman, the guy with the tattoos on his neck who rides a wheelchair. Who knows what they talk about? The nice old man in the corner who always smiles at his iPad as if he’s looking at some endearing pictures of his family. The same baristas I see almost every morning, hustling about behind the counter. And me, trying not to be nosy, but I can’t help myself.