I sometimes wonder how a killer comes to be. Is it a person who was raised not so well? I guess there comes a time when people just go nuts and kill a bunch of other people at a park or a museum. People are fascinated by these killers. Television shows present them as nefariously godlike creatures who are somehow special over all of us.

There was a show in which a famous host devoted time to interview a man who was indicted for a bunch of murders. Apologetic was the killer and polite as well, and even more polite than you or me. It came as a surprise. I didn’t think he had it in him, but apologies aside, he still committed murder in the worst degree, in which he lured a bunch of women to his car. The seventies were when the murders took place. And now the killer sits in prison for the remainder of his life. What thoughts ran through his head before he chose to kill them? At least he showed his honesty, displaying no remorse. It made me angry. I don’t watch those shows too often.

Like I said, some people are obsessed. Perhaps they’re too concerned with how they feel. What if they worry that they might have intent to kill? And so they watch and watch the interviews to make quite sure that they’re not murderers.

I wonder if a killer sits at home and watches shows like these. Suppose Ted Bundy used to watch the interviews of incarcerated murderers out of interest, not idolatry. Or he idolized them after all. Who knows? It’s hard to think he would. I can’t imagine killers of his nature watching television anyway.