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The First Monday Back

I’m sitting in the corner of the coffee shop observing everyone. There are one, two, three, four, five other customers sitting at their tables. Every one one of them is absorbed in their smartphones. We have come to this point. I used to predict how the future would look and got some of it right. One of those things was something like Youtube. I believed every person would have his/her/their own channel. For the most part, it ended up being correct. Except I don’t have a channel and I doubt I ever will.

Another prediction was that the cars would be rounder than before. They were too boxy in the eighties and nineties. The manufacturers decided, “Hey, it’s the future. Let’s make everything round.” Lo and behold, I saw them on the streets, these older models, round and futuristic. Some of them came out ugly, others improved.

Anyway, it’s a growing concern to me how everyone is stuck to their phones. I’m guilty as well except for now. The phone will distract me from emptiness later today. I’ll keep checking for new emails without a clue of what I’m looking for.

How will this Monday unfold? There’s a lot of anxiety about going back to work. I don’t know what emails I’ll have to deal with or how much work is in front of me.

My birthday was yesterday. Mom and Dad showed up to my door in the middle of the afternoon after a long drive back in town, anxious to see how my air conditioner was working. It impressed them how cold it was in my apartment.

After a few hours of chatting, we went to a restaurant called Lulu’s for dinner. The heat was one-hundred-and-eleven degrees. It was a slow, painful walk there, as if we were walking in mud, hot mud. Lulu’s was cool inside. The manager sat us in the middle of the dining area. Mom asked if the patio was comfortable enough to sit in. I thought she’d gone insane. We whined at the fact that they served Pepsi, not Coke. I ordered a Pepsi anyway, even if it’s far too inferior.

Our waiter didn’t have much of a personality. My father commented on that when she wasn’t around. She was more of a Flo from Flo’s diner, the type of waiter who would carry a pencil on her ear to take down our orders on a small pad.

Dad ordered the strawberry salad with shrimp. Not only did I wonder what the hell a strawberry salad would be, but who would eat shrimp with strawberries?

I ordered the swiss and mushroom burger, medium rare, while my mother ordered the chicken sandwich. The burger was charbroiled, which I don’t prefer, with romaine as its lettuce when it’s usually iceberg. It took up over thirty percent of the burger. I deleafed most of the lettuce to where there was only one slice. The cheeseburger wasn’t as much as a job as it was before.

My mother became fascinated by the tables because some of them had hooks on the underside of them, not all of them. Ours didn’t. She could’ve hung her purse on the hook. I could’ve hung my hat there since I wasn’t wearing it indoors.

We left Lulu’s and came back to my apartment for carrot cake and red velvet cake to celebrate my birthday. I ate only a few bites because I had eaten too much. They left after eating the cake to drive home and unpack. I still had to go grocery shopping to my chagrin.

Now it’s Monday. I’ll face the music at work. At least Thursday will be July Fourth. Only a four-day work week is ahead of me.

My Birthday

My birthday is today. It doesn’t carry the same weight as it used to. I kept forgetting that today was the day, and as I get older, I find that birthdays lose their importance over time. I don’t know what to do to celebrate since I live alone in this small town. I think the trip to Avila Beach was enough. I don’t need any more of it.

I have to go back to work tomorrow. It’s a four-day week because of July Fourth on Thursday, so I’ll only have to work Monday through Wednesday and Friday. It’s always a half-day on Fridays. And then I’ll go to the dentist on the following Monday, so that would be two weeks in a row of a four-day week.

I think I’ll spend my last day on vacation doing nothing special. I’m not happy that it’s my birthday, but I’m not that sad either, just sort of numb.

The regular people on social media will wish me a happy birthday, people whom I don’t even know, whom I’ve never even met. It’s weird like that. Every year, this one man sends me a happy birthday GIF with a synthetic voice that sings the happy birthday song. In a way it’s haunting. It makes me not want to know the person. There are people I was once close to who don’t wish me a happy birthday, and it stings. In response I don’t wish them one either. I don’t know what I ever did to those friends, but that’s the way it is. But like I said, birthdays aren’t as important as they used to be.

I remember my twenty-first birthday. My cousins drove me to Las Vegas to get me drunk. I was of the legal drinking age. That was a big deal. I don’t remember anything about the trip. I was still in college at the time. It’s too bad that there are no memories.

I ate a whole bag of Pepperidge Farm Milano cookies in bed last night for a celebration. That’s about as festive as it gets for me. I’ll treat myself to a burrito tonight from my favorite Mexican restaurant. Other than that, I dread tomorrow and this whole week in fact. It’s going to be over a hundred degrees again in the desert, and I’ll have to walk in this crap to get some exercise.

I really should join the gym. But I won’t have the motivation to go every day. I don’t know. I stopped going to the gym when I was living in Culver City because I was sick of the elliptical machine. All I did was paddle my feet for a half hour and sweat. I wasn’t going anywhere. I have to be going somewhere if I’m going to exercise. Otherwise it gets monotonous. Maybe I’ll go there to lift weights. People get addicted to that sort of stuff. I never did. I always looked at it as a rough hour to get through before I was done. Then I could go home and rest. Some people love the high that it brings. They’re talking about the lightheadedness from working out too hard. I look at it as the feeling before one is about to pass out, which is never good for me.

Anyway, rent is due tomorrow, and I have to finish editing my book this week before the next stage of development. Enough about my birthday.